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I ran away again, wasn't getting along with Trev. Trev kept leaving 'for work' for days at a time after we'd fight (we're fighting about university). Finally I said I'll be the one to leave this time, he didn't say anything and I packed some things and left home. Ren's girlfriend was there for me alot but not since she got back with Ren. I miss her. I miss being able to hang out with her, to talk to her, she never judged me like Trev does, or Ren for that matter. But she's off limits, way off. Football has been a drain of time, last minute practices and by the time I get home I can barely fall into bed where I sleep deeply, dreamlessly, for hours. Football is ending soon, swimming starting again not long after. I've been getting out of tutoring random people by saying I'd rather tutor my friend whose grades really suck. He needs the help, but he's come a long way with his writing, sometimes he writes better than me....I'm starting to hate him for his brilliance. Normally I'd cry to Ren's girlfriend but for whatever reason (probably Ren) she wasn't there for me. So I ended up back at Never's place. Never is changing as a person. I hate it. He used to be fun to be around, he'd do nothing much more than read alot and smoke pot. I don't know if it's because of university prep or what but he's turned into someone I feel like I barely know. I rarely saw him for the longest time and when I did he would be pondering something deep or writing. He was never a writer. Since he's been hanging around with my other friend, (let's call him Writer) Writer, he's been spending his time in literature world. I don't think Never notices he's turning into a differen't person. I walked into the room one time and asked him why he wasn't watching porn and he just looked at me blankly as though I'd insulted him. I haven't seen him get high for a long time either. Writer is another story. Writer was a wild child until they made me start working with him. I don't know how the school managed to make him focus so much on studying but they did it and he's no fun to be around anymore. Since his girlfriend left him (he was living with her) he's stopped fucking around and started going to school and using the rest of his time to study. (I asked Writer if he wanted to hang out one night and he said no....we had football practice later so I tackled him good enough to knock him out. I haven't talked to him since) I was hanging around with this kid named Lou for awhile. We were skipping school and practices to hang out in the park while the weather was ok and just talk about things. After I stayed with Never for a few days and drove him crazy I left the city and went to another one to stay with Lou and his brother. After a week of doing nothing Lou went crazy and said he "had to find himself" and went home. A couple days later, I went home. Trev isn't around. Nobody wants to hang out anymore. Everyone is buried in books and projects and work and it's fucking annoying. I blame the government. I blame life. |
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